im 25, disabled with a spine condition, also diagnosed autistic, and have no friends, no partner, no online connections, nothing.

it's gotten to the point i've tried forcing myself to be happy with it. that this is just how it is, i can't change it. i tried to make friends for 6 months online and everyone dipped when they eventually found out i'm disabled, so i gave up.

but it's starting to hurt me and i feel like i'm going crazy. i sit by myself and talk to myself all day. i have no one else to talk to. i do the same thing day after day with no emotional support. i hear and see things, i'm paranoid 24/7, anxious constantly, and have multiple meltdowns a day followed by anxiety spirals where everything feels hopeless and i resign myself to isolation forever.

how the hell do i solve this? i genuinely don't know what to do anymore. it feels like i'm doomed to be alone for good. all i want is one person and i can't even manage to find one. maybe i'm an outlier? maybe i'm not meant to have anyone? i don't know.

Hey everyone I’m a 36 year old male from New Zealand. I would love some people to talk to! My interests are sports and I absolutely adore animals ! I also like the beach and organic foods and the healing power of food. I’m currently trying to get myself working out for summer LOL

I’m 21 F and I literally have no friends it sucks because I’ve had people come and go in my life but no one has stick. It affects me so much and literally makes my depression worse because I think the last time I had close friends I was a freshman still. It’s like people don’t really notice me or wanna talk to me and it hurts because I genuinely need someone. I’m talking to someone rn but that’s about it so it’s like I barely have anyone in my life rn. I want friends but I’ve been trying to find them but literally can’t find anything. I also have thought I had friends in the past but then I randomly get blocked on everything or just completely ghosted and I don’t know what I did

What can I do? I especially want to make girl friends because it would be nice to have likeminded females in my life

Hiiiiii!!

The last few years haven't been the best and I have a lot of problems recently like not being able to go outside, barely sociable all that stuff so I figured I'd see if anyone wants to chat about anything. I don't really mind what you want to talk about I'm pretty much interested in everything.

A few things about me are I'm diagnosed autistic. I'm pretty honest if you ask me something I tend to not say things just because they're "the right thing to say". I have 2 ragdoll cats called Pandora and Tim!!! I like playing a lot of games. I like Greek Mythology. I like the circus and clowns/jesters pretty much anything that's there to entertain people. I like data science (I promise it's not as boring as it sounds). I found out I had cancer in the most bizarre way possible (dw I'm all good now hehe). My favourite artist is Lil Peep. And I genuinely care about people a lot.

If you're ever bored or need to get something off your chest or just need someone to hang out with don't be scared to give me a message <3

I’m so exhausted by constantly feeling lonely and knowing I don’t have anyone to hang out with or even text. I have tried to fill the void by pursuing hobbies but it always goes back to “I am alone and I have been for a long time.” most of the time I just ignore the feeling but during this time of year it gets extra bad.

Is it wrong that I pay for people’s food just so I can have someone to hang out with? My friends never really text me first or say, “We should hang out,” so I always have to be the one reaching out. Sometimes, I text people I know and invite them to dinner, even offering to pay for their food just so I can have some company. I just wish people would want to spend time with me without me always having to be the one to make plans.

Hey everyone,

I’m posting this because I don't honestly have anyone in my life right now that I can talk to. To be completely honest, my mental health has been really bad lately, and I feel a heavy weight on my mind. All I need right now is just a safe space to vent, or someone to chat with to take the edge off.

If anyone else is going through something similar, or simply has the time and kindness for a quiet conversation, please feel free to leave a comment or send me a DM.

Thanks for reading.

Sometimes i wish i had friends

I have come to the conclusion that things don't flow simply because we are just not impressive physically, for guys specially, it is super important to be tall, it gets you some immediate attention.

I have done everything the gurus recommend...got the hobby, the activties, I get there early, leave late...try to be cute, likable, relatable...And still fee invisible, people still ignore you, people still treat you like a traffic light...they stay for a minute and leave, while you keep waiting.

I have worked on solitude, done sole travel, improved my career, got the dog...

no matter how hard you try, you will always get the scraps so fuck this shit, go crazy, and fart in the elevator walk shirtless in the mall because none of this shit will matter...

Someone next to you is being closed off, mute, dismissive, just plain dumb..and things just work out, invitations just come, the bridge gets built, nice things get delivered, they just receive...because they have the looks and that is pretty much it.

Otherwise, nothing you do will matter...years of education, of self improvementit may make you feel proud, but this void will be the same, because you now you have to perform. Only thing that can change is just boatloads of money...if you can get it, and good luck, because it will be an uphill battle for you...and not enough to have a nice life...boatloads, mercedes loads, jewlery loads.

So give up, fuck this shit, and be like a stray dog...fucking shit up, because at least you wont have to wait for a miracle.

I was at a hospital today and almost cried.

I (32f) have always felt like an extra person in life. As a child I was never invited to parties or sleep overs, I lived at home during college to save money and because my emotionally manipulative father prevented me from exploring school options outside of my hometown. I moved out at 23 with no support from my parents to pursue grad school in NYC (my dad threatened to slash my tires because he was mad I was leaving). I have two younger siblings but I’m often left out of conversations and life updates.

I can make friends and I love to be a safe space and care giver for people. I’m really proud to have made an apartment that is comfortable and inviting but I always feel like my friends sort of forget about me. I try to rationalize things by saying my schedule isn’t great for hanging out after work or that I’m the one who moved away so it’s on me to maintain a relationship with my siblings.I often times feel like if I just disappeared no one would really notice. I have a partner who’s loving and I love him but I also feel like he’d be fine without me. My coworkers are all mean and cliquey and I know they definitely wouldn’t miss me or care if I stopped showing up.

Sometimes I feel like I’ll be in a moment with other people and I can see exactly how it would play out if I wasn’t there and often times it doesn’t make the situation worse sometimes it seems like it would be better. Is there a term for this? I don’t feel suicidal or like I’d neglect myself to the point of harm I just simply feel numb and like if I stopped existing somehow then the world would just move on and it wouldn’t really have any sort of lasting impact.

I try really hard to ignore this feeling but it’s always been there throughout my life. I really do try my best to be a good loving person and I’m grateful for the people I have in my life and the time I’m able to spend with them. I just wonder if I stopped reaching out would anyone really notice?

Recently got word that it’s about time I move out and skipping all of the resentment and frustrations about how unprepared I was for that conversation I’m beginning to realize how cripplingly alone I am going to be. I’ve been given the cold shoulder from my family at home lately. And my home family won’t talk to any extended family anymore. I don’t have a girlfriend and I’m not ready for one either. And so with all of this I’m realizing how alone I am going to be. And I’m wondering how do people get through situations like this? I know multiple men who work a 60 hour work week and have no one to talk to and no one who loves them or at least no one who will tell them that they are loved. And I wonder how and why do you do it!? With no appreciation and no one to tell you that you are loved for the sacrifices you make. And aside from that what do you do with your time away from work? what makes everything worth it? And if you don’t have anything like that what’s the point? There has to be some reason to the day to day endless work cycle right?

I only have one person and it’s my gf and she’s so caring but somehow she’s not enough. I need more of a support group and I don’t. When she leaves for work it’s agonizing how lonely it is. I have constant heartache whenever I’m alone or know I’m about to be alone. It hurts. I’ve just moved for the first time to a new city so I know no one. I’m very socially particular, so it’s hard to find a friend that sticks. Any energy that I could have allocated towards finding friends is being drained constantly by the heartache of loneliness. I need help.

I'm 18 years old and I just moved out by myself to study in a university, I know no one here and it's been 2 mounths that I'm here and I am yet to make some friends or just have a conversation with anybody, I'm very socially awkward and anxious and also unattractive, it's not like I didn't have social problems before this but at least I used to have some friends back in my hometown , the only people I talk to are my family who call me sometimes , I want some help if possible

**Today is my birthday, and nobody in my life even knows—not even my family. I’m just sitting here alone, crying, and feeling completely hollowed out.**
**Looking back at my life, I feel like I haven’t built anything real. I don’t have a single close friend I can call up to just hang out and have a good time with. I feel completely isolated.**
**To make it worse, I’m drowning in regret over my past relationship. I actually had a really good thing with someone, and I ruined it. During a fight, I said some terrible, unforgivable things—accusing her of sleeping around and having multiple relationships. I sabotaged something good, hurt her deeply, and now I’m left with the guilt of feeling like I ruined her life and my only real connection.**
**My home life doesn't help the isolation. I was born and raised in Mumbai, and I loved the life and mindset there. Because of my dad's roots, we shifted back to his hometown—a very conservative tier-3 city. There’s this constant, nagging feeling in the back of my mind that we left a good place for somewhere that feels restrictive and inferior, and I just don't fit in here. My family is super conservative, so I can't even open up to them.**
**I’m not feeling well physically or mentally tonight. I just feel like I’ve messed everything up and have nobody in my corner. I didn't want to go through my entire birthday without a single person knowing, so I'm posting this here. Thanks for reading if you made it this far.**

I am 23 f from india.I have a nice humour .l have a few friends in real life .So here i am trying to get some new friends.l am a fun loving person here for long term friendships.
I have many hobbies as well as that include listening to music, astrology, numerology,fashion watching webseries especially thriller.
I am a chatter box would love to talk on calls even. I hope i can seek what i am tryna find here.
Nice day to the one reading this.

😴💤

i've been lonely since i was like 10. not "no friends" lonely, i have friends, but the kind where you're surrounded by people and still feel completely alone. i've wanted someone to love and be loved by for basically half my life now and it's never happened

every time i get a crush it starts off so nice, and for a second you feel like maybe. then you go home and replay it for weeks. you look for meaning in everything. and slowly that nice feeling turns into this deep ache because you already know how it ends. they never feel the same

and it's not just a surface level crush. i can love them even with their flaws. the more i learn about them, the more i want to be with them, and the more it drives me insane, because i'm hoping for something that's literally never gonna happen. it's just this sharp pain and i don't know what to do with it. and it's affecting my whole life. i can't focus, i don't even want to focus tbh, i have no motivation, and i just feel lonely

a while ago one girl was describing me for a game and she called me "normal and chill." i told her i was surprised, like... normal? really? and she even insisted that i was. if only she knew. then the next time we met she was cold and distant, so any hope there, ofc, gone. and it just hurts

then there's another girl. she's so bright. she pulls me in, laughs at my jokes even when they don't land, treats me differently from the rest of the group. and yet we barely meet. i even have her contact, but we don't text, or anything

and if i'm being honest, i get why. i'm overweight, i'm not attractive, i'm quiet and freeze up when it matters. she's way out of my league. there are better people in our own friend group, plus the entire world, than to choose me. it feels like you have to be flawless to be loved and i'm so far from that

the worst part is i act fine. everyone thinks i'm doing alright. then it's 3am, i'm alone in my room, and it hurts so bad it's hard to breathe. i don't even want much. i just want someone to see me, flaws and all, and choose me anyway

back in may i had the worst weeks of my life. i was so deep in depression that i basically stopped taking care of myself. i didn't eat, barely drank water, and my sleep was gone to shit for nearly 2 weeks. i wasn't actively trying to end things, but looking back, it kinda was an attempt without me even realizing it. the craziest part is i didn't even feel physically bad. the emotional pain was so loud i didn't notice i was hungry or thirsty. nothing helped, not music, not games, nothing. everything just felt empty. i found out later there's a word for it, anhedonia, and that described it exactly. no one even knew. it was only after that i realized i could've actually died, and that really messes with my head

so i guess at least i can feel this now. as much as it hurts, it's something

i'm trying. i don't even like putting myself out there, i'm introverted and i hate how much energy it takes, but the pain is what forces me to do it anyway. and it feels like i'm just hoping for something hopeless, over and over

i'm doing better than may. i'm eating, drinking water, and some okay stuff has been happening. but the loneliness never left, and some days i feel it starting to creep back. today was one of those days, and it scared me

i think i'm safe right now, i just needed to say it somewhere instead of keeping it in

does this ever actually change? or is this just how it is for people like me

I have no friends

It's my 18th birthday today and maybe the worst day of year. It's just started but idk,I already knew it is going to be worst day of the year. Literally, i spend the whole year happily, hassi mazak mai even thought ki mai rona chordi hu kuch bhi baaton mai like expectations rkhne mai kyoki puri toh hogi nhi I knew . But I'm crying from last 4-5 days ki mera birthday acha nhi jayega kyo par. Why I'm always the one planning for other's birthday, thinking that today is their special day. Why is there no effort in return??

I’m looking to connect with somebody on here. I’ve been struggling lately with some medication side effects and some experiences relating to hospital and stuff like that.

I’m 27f, I’m from the UK, and right now I generally find socialisation to be a lot of effort with little reward (mainly due to medication) but I do ultimately want to connect with people.

I’m struggling to connect to a lot of my interests because of side effects from medication, however my longstanding interests are music, travelling, writing, researching, comedy, film and cooking.

Music wise, my favourite genre is liquid drum and bass— artists like Fred V, Boxplot, Audioscribe, Maduk and Hybrid Minds. I also like rock music and am just a fan of all genres of music in general.

I’ve travelled a fair bit in my life— especially in my early 20s and had a really good time, exploring, meeting people. I guess ever since my health deteriorated 4 years ago, I’ve been completely unable to meet new people or do anything meaningful with my life.

I’m now back at university completing my final year in literature, but I’m struggling to meet anyone or converse with anyone, mainly due to how this medication is making me feel.

I spent the past 4 years of my life with little to do except for play video games. I have 11,000 crowns in Fall Guys and am pretty good at Fortnite.

After spending so long alone, I’ve sort of forgotten what it’s like for anyone to really know me, and I miss that a lot.

I don’t know how well I will do at socialising since my medication tends to make me a little bit flat compared to how I usually am, but if this is something you can accept, I would love to hear from you.

After feeling unwanted for whole year , I just want to feel seen and wanted for today :)

It's my 17th one, and prob gonna re watch ' The prestige ' and listen to music... going to avoid social media for today lol😭

I just realized today how utterly alone the rest of my life will be. My mother, who was my most dearest and best friend, the only one I truly had in my corner or that actually loved me, passed away last week. Its during this time that I see how truly alone I am. I only have one friend here that I thought was a good friend but theyve been so wrapped up in their own lives they havent checked in on me once. Not even a hey how are you text. My other two friends live out of state and I have only heard from each of them one time and nothing since despite me reaching out. I have one sibling that I barely speak to even with my mother's passing and my father has long been dead. I'm not married, no children. I work from home so I don't even have co workers. I have no one else. Its such a weird thing to know that theres not one person in this entire world that truly loves me. Not one person to know if Im alive or not. Not one person to sit with me while I cry myself to sleep each night. No one even bothered to bring food or flowers or stop by or even send a sympathy card. And now I have to face the rest of my life alone like this and I dont know how Im going to do this. Any advice on how to handle being truly alone in the world?