r/leaves • u/Vivid_Kangaroo_8995 • 3h ago
Crying
I’ve been fighting trying to stay sober from this for 3 years now. the last few days I’ve been crying nonstop and this happened last time but somehow I still crave it? I wish someone could tell me some advice that could fix everything but I know that’s not true. i guess I keep going back to feel something because im not that happy but if I’m not happy inside I don’t think I should be even smoking then.
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u/gossamermoonglimmer 2h ago
Keep going! This is totally normal. Try to hold out- it will end. The benefits of quitting are far greater than the benefits of smoking. You can do this!
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u/Original_Diamond_23 3h ago
Crying here day 4 .. with bpd for me the loneliness or getting triggered is causing a lot of tension i felt so much better smoking .. i had joy
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u/racial_rapport 3h ago
crying is your brain recalibrating, it’s actually a good sign even though it feels like garbage right now. three years of fighting means you’ve already proven you’re stuborn enough to stick with this, even when it sucks. the craving isn’t really for the high, it’s for a break from feeling flat, and your brain’s just reaching for the quickest exit it remembers. if you’re not happy inside, smoking just puts a fog machine over the problem, it doesn’t solve the wiring underneath. maybe let the spreadsheet nerd in me suggest tracking the tears like data points, see if there’s a pattern, because sometimes knowing when the wave hits makes it a little less overwhelming.
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u/swaggy6445 3h ago
Cryung aswrll