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Доброго времени суток, я не знаю с чего начать, не знаю к кому обратиться, но мне очень хреново, я без сил и вдохновения, у меня какое то разочарование к себе... Я на столько разочарован в себе, что не могу прожить и дня, не думая о том, как стать лучше и изменить себя к лучшему. Я сам по себе веселый человек в обществе, но увы в последнее время почему то я от всех отдалился, отдалился так что даже ни с кем не общаюсь неделями, я устал не физически, а морально, мне тяжело это все тащить, я слишком сильно начинаю привязываться к людям, поэтому держусь по дальше от всех, мои мысли сжирают меня изнутри, в голове одна каша, не могу сосредоточиться на чем-то другом, постоянно мысли по типу "Почему я тогда сделал так, а не вот так" "Почему я не сделал ничего, когда можно было все изменить". Я знаю что прошлое не вернуть, и надо жить будущим, но меня так сильно тянет в прошлое что даже не хочется думать о будущем, вроде все хорошо но постоянные тревоги, хочется просто исчезнуть что ли, я не ищу тут помощи, я просто хочу поделиться своими мыслями так как мне тяжело все дается, я пытался всячески изменить свою жизнь но не получается...

Lost myself completely, mixed up feelings , numb and cold , lost , missing, wanted to feel warmth and love , can't able to cry , end up being an empty container, just too much inside , so many there to talk but no one to understand. Don't know how and why it's like this.

I honestly don't know where to start, but I need to get this off my chest.

I went through a pretty bad breakup with my girlfriend. We were in a live-in relationship for almost two years, and despite our fights, we loved, cared for, and supported each other. I was genuinely happy with her.

Unfortunately, her parents weren't agreeing to our marriage. They said a lot of hurtful things about me, and eventually, I couldn't take it anymore. We decided to separate mutually, even though the feelings didn't just disappear.

After that, things kept getting worse. I lost my freelance project, then things with a client went downhill, and eventually, I lost my job too. I was financially drained and mentally exhausted.

The people I thought would stand by me during my worst phase slowly started fading away, especially when I reached out asking for job referrals. It made me question a lot of things about friendship. Do people genuinely care about you, or is it easier to be around someone when their life is going well?

Somehow, I managed to get a job again after five months. I'm grateful for that, and initially, I felt happy. I haven't even told some of those people that I've found a job because, honestly, I don't want to reopen those doors.

But lately, the loneliness has been hitting me really hard.

It's Dandiya season, and everyone's posting pictures with their friend groups, going out and making memories. Meanwhile, I'm sitting at home watching TV, working, and trying to get through another day. Yes, I was literally working on a holiday.

It's not that I expect people to entertain me all the time. I just miss having people around. I miss having someone to talk to, someone to make plans with, and someone who genuinely wants me around.

And then there's the arranged marriage situation.

My parents are looking for a bride, but some families seem to have expectations like ₹4 crore worth of property in my name and a monthly income of ₹1–2 lakh. It hurts to feel like marriage has become a financial transaction.

My ex's parents had their own expectations regarding caste and appearance. We were happy together for almost two years, but apparently, that wasn't enough to make our relationship acceptable to them.

Now I'm stuck between trying to move on from someone I still love and facing a marriage process that feels more like a business negotiation than finding a life partner.

I don't know how to move on from her. I don't know how to deal with the loneliness. And I don't know why, even after finally getting a job again, I still feel so empty.

I'm trying to rebuild my life, but some days I feel exhausted from having to be strong all the time.

I guess my question is: how do you rebuild your life when you lose the person you imagined your future with, and the people you expected to support you aren't there anymore?

How do you stop feeling lonely when everyone around you seems to have someone?

I'm not necessarily looking for solutions to everything. I just wanted to put this somewhere and hear from people who've gone through something similar.

Oo goddd vhaiii wo smjhtaaa kya khudko suar si shakal ka , mujjhe kehta tera music taste kharab ho gya hai , kamina earlier use to vibe on my songs , mera music taste nhi tera interest khtm ho gya hai ughhh what the hell is wrong with this guy, he's completely destroying my mental peace , ek toh sabse gandi shkl wale ko chance do aur woh apni aukaat na dikhaye I hate him vhaiii usne khudka music taste dekha hai sexist haryanvi songs sunta hai eww I hate his music taste kuch ni hota isse yawrrrrr bhagwan ji kyu krte ho mere saath aisa I wnna kms tbh, suar si shkl ka smjhta ky hai khudko beep beep beep , like usko bilkul frk nhi pdta kisi cheej se bhaii, I'm getting hurt and he's like ok hmm uss suar ko uski real aukaat dikhao koi bhagwan ji kre koi usse Peet ke jaaye itna peete uski akal theekhane laa de koi peeto usko

I recently had a bad dating experience and it left me really messed up... i'm just now getting back to work.But the bills are piled up past due.Household necessities need to be bought.Halloween is coming up.Kids want costumes.I have no gas in my car , everything is starting to fall apart and I can't get any help.I'm doing it all on my own while still trying to recover from being almost burned alive.. im drowning is there any help

if you love me, why does it hurt so much, why are you so cruel. You treat me like hunting game. You only want me when in far away. absent. When you hold me by my neck,like a chokehold, your dominance overpowing i.am. worthless.to.you.
Its been 3 days, your scent tatters my bedsheets, I sleep with your clothes just to hold you again, why do you do this to me?
You tell others you care, you want to fill my cup but your draining it, your draining me.
i promised myself
i never fall in love
but somehow when god gave you to me lt felt like a blessing, so why has it became
a curse?

maths, im doing honours algebra, i can solve the equations good,really good,you’d be proud if you knew i finally grasped it. But theres one variable missing to the equation of my heart, and its you. i miss you.
i miss our laughs, our hugs, our tears, grocery shopping together, the way youd place the blunt between my lips before tilting your head to look into my eyes.
But if you truly loved me as much as you preached, why are you doing this to me, im stronger than this, but my heart Is my enemy, please save me. Save me from you.

So I’ve been feeling extremely anxious and tired
The one I trusted decided to leave things her and he wished for me the best, idk why but I felt like something was weird, I didn’t cry, I didn’t even felt anything, I teared up and that’s all
I just want to know why
He was like everything to me
And I know I wasn’t
My family makes me even worse
Mom is yelling at me for everything
Babying my sister forever
Bad grades in senior year
The feeling of just wanting to sleep for 2 days straight
I really want to talk to somebody about it.

Hi. I don’t really know where else to put this.

I just need someone to listen. I’m not looking for advice or solutions right now, I just want to let everything out.

Lately, I’ve been feeling so overwhelmed. From the outside, I probably look okay. I smile, I work, I go about my day as if everything is fine. But inside, I feel exhausted and like I’m carrying so much on my own.

I don’t want to tell my family or friends because I don’t want them to worry or see this vulnerable side of me. So I’m here, hoping a kind stranger might understand.

Pretty underweight (always been) 20Mf. For the past 4 months, I have been experiencing a constant feeling of unreality. It feels as though I am drunk/high or half-asleep, as if I am on autopilot and everything around me feels somewhat unreal. I have searched online, and my symptoms seem to resemble derealization.

In addition to this, I experience fatigue even when I sleep well. The fatigue does not seem to depend on whether I do physical activities during the day or not. However, over the past few weeks, I have started sleeping poorly and waking up early in the morning.

I also experience headaches, pressure in my head, and neck pain. I have tried muscle relaxants and massage therapy for the neck pain, but neither has helped. Also at the start of this i sometimes felt like fainting when walking but it has gone away. I also have noticed one singular eye floater on my right eye.

What could be causing these symptoms? They do not occur in distinct episodes, and the headache is not particularly severe. It feels more like a tension-type headache.

I have tried triptanes, but they did not help. My thyroid function is normal, as are my vitamin B12, B9 and vitamin D levels. My ferritin level is 37. And it has been changing from 49 to 24. I also havw crohns disease which is in remission.

My neurologist prescribed escitalopram as a trial, which I took for two and a half months, but it did not help. She also did head mri and there was nothing wrong.

I have no history of trauma, no panic symptoms, and generally do not experience much stress, apart from the stress caused by these symptoms themselves.

My symptoms started in the final days of my new job in car repairshop where i was moving car tires and lifting them. Im not sure if this can be linked to that because i didnt have any symptoms expect the final days. I have not been working at all during this 4 month period.

What could be the underlying cause of these symptoms?

I apologize for how much of a ramble this is but it’s midnight and I’m losing my mind and I can’t help but feel like I’m suffocating my brain. I have a podcast playing and I’m trying to sleep but my brain is so loud I wanna scream.

I don’t understand why my brain is always its worst when I’m supposed to sleep. It might just be because of the silence or something, whatever it is, it makes me feel god awful. I don’t really wanna talk about it one on one with someone because I hate the idea of being psychoanalyzed and I also am pretty sure talking about it’s just gonna make it worse right now… but I feel trapped because I’m back in my hometown and we’re with my family and it just makes me feel awful. I’m only back for today leaving tomorrow morning but god I wish I just could stay away from home forever. I was trapped in this town and this home for years and now I’m free but I still have to come back every once in awhile. There’s just so many commitments and responsibilities here.

I feel anger towards this place. I feel anger towards all but one of my family members. It all makes me sick and tired. I wanna sleep and just wake up and it be time to leave again. I wanna go away now. I’m just so tired

That’s obviously not all that’s on my mind but it’s the loudest thing right now and only thing I can type about. I feel crazy because all my thoughts are erratic. Like all the time I’m thinking erratically. I can’t think calmly ever. It’s so stupid and the night time makes me feel worse and I don’t know what to do at this point.

I am 36M, turning 37 soon. My birthday is this Saturday. This has already been the worst year of my whole life. I am so exhausted with everything and am dreading my 37th birthday and feel like I do not want this birthday at all.

I feel awful and hopeless. Just wanting to talk, as I have no friends and thus no support system whatsoever.