I have FAR more information in this post I've made, but i think what i need more is broad career advice then life advice.
(This is in Canada)
The quick summary is that i was in university back in 2016 to 2020 first for a BA in Physics, then i got extremely sick and had a ton of hospitalizations. I switched to Computer Security as it was as bit easier but my health deteriorated to much for me to continue. My health stayed bad for a solid decade until finally started getting better in 2024. However i already dropped out and stopped the process of getting my pilots license, which was my dream to be a pilot (I'm fully aware that its a difficult job with many negatives, didn't matter).
For all intent and purposes my 20s were spent in the hospital and are a black hole, I may be 31 but as far as life experiences are concerned im pretty much still 20. Though of course a potential employer wouldn't care about that.
My work history is pathetic with a tiny smattering of jobs (major issue #1), but i've have done an absolute ton of work on our property as well as operated plenty of machines, ATVs with trailers and plows, Snow blowers, Z cutters, Lifters, Earth Movers etc. We have a large property and as part of staying here i help my dada with the constant upkeep, snow removal, beaver dam clearing, grass cutting each week (takes two and a half hours on a z-cutter), basic maintenance etc. I may not have the work history to put on a resume, but i have worked a lot.
However my biggest largest issue is my current health, in the last two years i was getting better but i've plateaued hard. I still have daily pain that i'm on medication for (major issue #2), and literally do not have the strength or stamina to do any real manual physical job (MAJOR issue #3). I recently worked for a few months as a car mechanic doing oil changes and tire balances and instead of getting more stamina as i got into working i got less. Literally after each 5 hour part time shift i would fall asleep at home between 12 to 15 hours, and it got worse, by the end i needed to sleep in my car for 20 mins just before going home. EACH. TIME. Doing a few hours of work outside is similar enough to wipe me out.
I'm fine with going back to school, i excel with structure, but i need to know what i'm going back for. I need something that is mostly seated preferably indoors. And i mean anything, computer repair, tool and die maker, gunsmith, machinist, accountet, delivery driver, jewel fitter, crane operator just whatever as long as it's not going to literally kill me and there is a clear path of progress to take to get it, because my only other option is disability.
My two favourite things i excel at are using my hands, i love tinkering, building, figuring something out, working with a gadgets or tools etc. Every time i got to do something like that growing up i loved, while other kids at the summer camp went canoeing or rock climbing i preferred to stay inside and do stain glass with the soldering or spend time in the computer lab putting together PCs, i was 10.
I thought car mechanic would be it, i was thinking about getting the apprenticeship, doing the studying getting the tools, but flipping tires for five hours was literally destroying me. The rare moment i could help fix something kind of neat i would love it, like the one when we hooked up a trailer hitch and i helped with wiring in the lights, LOVED every moment of it . The physics coursework legitimately just came easy to me. This isn't some cringe humble brag i guess i just had the kind of brain wired in the way to easily understand it, not saying im smarter or anything.
The other thing is just how much it turns out i love operating basically any kind of machinery or vehicle. My first and foremost love is flying, i was getting my licenses before i had to stop for my health. But it goes for anything really, driving, operating things like the ATV, earth mover, bucket, jetski and boat (Uncle's cabin). The idea of spending all my time driving across the country caring whatever genully appeals to me, though that one probably isn't an option at the moment.
So many of these types of jobs need licensing or apprenticeships or some kind of schooling though that im paralyzed by both the choice and the known unknowns (i know there a toin of jobs that i could do, but i don't know what they are).
Also if it means getting my life back onto its own course im more than fine taking on debt, it's just an absolute necessary sacrifice. As long as the degree isn't underwater basket welding or something (the tradesman version of underwater basket weaving, which is a more creative field).
One of the few things i have going for me is that i'm completely fine and ready to uproot my entire life and go anywhere. 1500 miles north into the Canadian tundra to operate a guard booth at an oil field? Sure, i love the snow and quiet. fix computers at a tiny shop in a one light town 15 hours from the nearest city? Sure thing, love the countryside.
Again, i may be 31, but try to think of this more like i'm 20 and i just finished a gap (a gap decade) and i'm asking about what's the next best step. Once i have an end goal in mind then i can make the steps necessary to achieve it.