I started a new job recently, and honestly, the beginning was pretty overwhelming. I felt lost because there was so much to learn, but I’m slowly understanding things better, and I can see that I’m learning something new almost every day.
The problem is that I constantly compare myself to my coworkers. They seem so much more knowledgeable than me, and they’re working on projects that look much more complex. Meanwhile, I sometimes struggle with things that seem easy for them. Even when I have questions, I feel like they’re stupid and that I should have figured things out on my own.
I know I’m new, and logically, I understand that I can’t know everything immediately. But emotionally, it’s a different story. I keep thinking that maybe I’m learning too slowly or that my coworkers will eventually realize I’m not as competent as they expected me to be.
The worst part is that I can’t seem to switch off after work. I go to work early, leave at the end of the day, and then spend the evening thinking about all the problems I still need to solve. I keep telling myself that I should work late into the night, sacrifice my sleep, and fix everything so that when someone asks me about my progress the next day, I’ll have something impressive to report.
I’m constantly afraid that someone will ask me what I’ve accomplished and I won’t have enough to say. I worry that they’ll think I’m extremely slow, especially when I see how much other people seem to get done.
I realize that working all night and sacrificing my sleep probably isn’t sustainable, but I feel guilty when I’m not working. Even when I’m resting, I feel like I should be doing something productive to catch up.
I think I’m putting an enormous amount of pressure on myself to prove that I deserve this job, and I don’t know how to stop.
For those of you who have been through something similar:
-How long did it take you to feel comfortable in a new job?
-How do you deal with feeling less competent than your coworkers, especially when they seem to be working on much more complex things?
-How do you stop feeling guilty when you’re not working and resist the urge to sacrifice your sleep just to catch up?
And how do you know whether you’re genuinely learning too slowly or simply being too hard on yourself?
I’d really appreciate hearing about other people's experiences, especially from people who struggled at the beginning of their careers but eventually found their footing.